Saying "Yes" to Pappa

One of my prayers lately has been for God to break my heart for what breaks His. To give me the eyes to see people the way He sees them and to love them the way He does. Basically, just to have His heart and love for those hurting, suffering, and seeking anything of meaning in this life. I have also been telling God that I am an empty vessel open and willing to be used by Him.

If I am being completely honest there are a few things I didn't expect...
For one, I didn't expect to have to make good on my promise so soon. Two, I didn't expect to have to die (to self, sometimes daily) and how truly hard that would be. Even if it meant doing something I am excited about but still having to give up something in return. And finally, as we humans are so notorious for doing, I think I completely underestimated what God has planned for me.

I've grown quite accustom to this life and I'm more than a little apprehensive about change, but I feel like I am standing on the edge of a precipice. I have the choice to stay safely on the ledge loving my life, refusing change, and trying to peer into the future God has prepared for me, but never being able to see it clearly. Or...I can let go of everything I have ever known and dive unabated into what God has created me to be and destined me to do. Yes, it will be an unknown and maybe a little bit scary at times, but I also know it will be exciting, exhilarating, and all together glorious! I have a feeling one of my frequent sayings will be, "You can't make this stuff up!".

I have made my decision. Have you?

They won the victory over him because of the blood of the lamb and the word of their testimony. They didn't love their life so much that they refused to give it up.
-Revelation 12:11 (God's Word Translation)

I leave you with two songs of inspiration...

Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath

Give me your eyes for just one second

Give me your eyes so I can see

Everything that I keep missing

Give me your love for humanity

Give me your arms for the broken hearted

The ones that are far beyond my reach

Give me your heart for the one's forgotten

Give me your eyes so I can see

Hosanna by Hillsong United

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity